Category Archives: New Beginnings

New Times Moving Forward in our lives Muddy Mess

So how are you in this time of change? We are moving forward pulling the mud out of the hidden depth of our world showing up in odd ways. I can share my own shaman experience those of you have been here at my home for Sweat Lodge, my beautiful pond that had several fish lots of water lily’s but then proceeded to leak very much like our political system the flushing out of hidden agenda’s rather what team you are on. Now seeing the pain of the muck that was below the surface, it is hard deep work we are witnessing. I climbed in my pond pulling togging the rubber lining that was wrapped in roots, deb re, rocks, hard messy nasty work…….hard labor work. I used my garage vacuum to get some of the muddy water out, but still have oodles left. I live on a swamp ( sping sorta) it would replenish no matter what I do. This week i am having an Indian Shawn help me with the the new lining and rubber hoping it all works out. So why am I describing this in a letter…..those of you who are searching for the Shaman search of experiences these show up in the oddest ways plus requires hard labor no matter what sex you are or age, keep showing up. As I worked there were 2 raven landing on my Sweat lodge then pacing as I work, not most would say isn’t that interesting however I see it as the possibility of miracles showing up knowing this hard work in the water psychological cleansing that is being needed Now!
  As a teacher I found my work with Charlie Thom this type of work taught me the most in Shaman terms but you have to be totally present to understand your part in even re-doing a pond. Being here in Mt Shasta is representative of the heart of the world sending out prayers for all that is going on,the saddness of Puerto Rico , volcano’s in Kona, and  Guatemala   having the mud oozing between my shoes almost tugging like quick sand one thing is great I didn’t fall totally in but maintained my balance plus learning to quite while I could stay clear of my understanding.
  What is more interesting in a 24 hour period I had 4 people want to get together Jannie from Portland, Ann Astrology from Davis, Chad & Charlie from Los Angles. It was almost impossible to do so but it is not accident they are drawn to their role in the prayers I just kept it simple telling each of them about my work but again my knowing the importance of their energy being around. This work you have to pay attention even if it is a visitor seems innocent but actually what is the possibility of these 4 being here they of course don’t know each other at all. I would have loved to do the normal thing have coffee or breakfast or something fun and not so muddy but I knew the importance of staying on track with my prayers.
  So finishing up I had help with Shawn Hoaglen who is a spiritual medicine person he understood what I was say about it being necessary to understand the symbolism of the muddy tied up roots from my water lily’s much is being exposed for us to clear, heal and be part of the solution.
  So this summer if you are ready to move forward contact me for a session to see if we can do this journey together. I appreciate my clients even when there is challenges just staying on track moving forward no matter what often setting new goals once we achieve what we start with making new decision and finding your destiny……..Play with a big Vision!
Blessings during these transitions and transformation, dream big, keep the energy flowing…….it is a time of creating how you want to move forward!
I am writing not only to tell you about my upcoming event but I have received guidance to come your way and participate with this gal whom I don’t know but feel with the drumming and information it will be fun!
Please remember I will be at East West in Mountain View on 7-7,2018 1:30-3:30 then doing readings half hour or more 4-7 for reservation I will be sending a flyer around shortly
I will be at New Renaissance in Portland 7-14 from 11-2 i will be sending a flyer around shortly too!
I will be doing a family, friends and those I am working with on Father’s Day will filly up the water in my pond just before. My Sweat Lodge is private not open to the public so please call me to check with me.
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Linda M Held
502 Chestnut St.
Mt Shasta, Ca

Upcoming Medicine Wheel Talks in Mountain View and Portland

Journey into New/Old Territory

Even though Mt. Shasta is my spiritual home, I knew earlier this year that I needed to make changes to get “out there” more. I knew that I needed to interact with new people to stimulate me and also to be more visible and to get my coaching practice, teachings, sweat lodges, women’s groups trainings, Vision Quests, and now possibly a new training in Peru next year, going.

So let me give you a bit of background to this old…and new…territory of each book store. I knew the original owner of East West Bookshop in Mountain View. I was in their first meditation group many moons ago, plus I ended up on their board of directors. I was asked to buy the bookstore, but then we had the amazing opportunity for Swami Kriyananda to buy the bookstore, which was obviously a very good idea for bringing amazing teachers from all over the world to East West.

Portland has been an important part of my life for several decades. It was at New Renaissance Bookshop in Portland where I first met up with my biological dad when I was 40 yrs old, plus my former husband had a  family cabin in Washougal, so I often visited the nearby Saturday Market in Portland with my boys.

I visited New Renaissance Bookshop again when my son was living in Portland to get his residency and to apply to dental school. While visiting New Renaissance, I noticed the book  Seat of the Soul book by Gary Zukav, and realized that I had supported Gary in a sweat lodge with my mentor, Native American teacher Charlie Thom from the Mt. Shasta area.  While Gary was famous and often on Oprah and other talkshows, I didn’t recognize him in the sweat lodge. Seeing Gary’s book in New Renaissance made me feel the call to return and share my own teachings and wisdom one day.

I did finally make it back to New Renaissance this year in April. I held two group talks on the Medicine Wheel and I loved both of them! I will return to New Renaissance at least two times before the end of October. Though Portland is a far drive from my home in Mt. Shasta, it was worth the drive. Coming home to these bookstores is def. good medicine for me that reflect a long history of change for me. It was coming home to my teachings and my joy of being with people and being of service in their healing and journey on the Medicine Wheel. I’ll be posting the details of my two upcoming bookshop talks in July here.

I always start out my bookshop talks with a prayer, making it clear that I want participation from the group. I am determined to know the  people who show up to my talks, wanting what they have to share and to teach me. I know me, but what I want to know is you — and how I can be of service to our journey. I always have a plan for the talk but once we roll my psychic intuition and the group sets the tone about where we are going. I then share about  the benefits of my coaching practice that includes in person visits to Mt. Shasta to work with me in the beautiful energy of my beloved Mt. Shasta, plus  phone or zoom sessions where I support and coach people.

I have gratitude to the Angels, Guides, and Ancestors for creating a whole new paradigm for me in my progression plus to Jennifer Witherspoon for her help in editing my materials. I also have deep gratitude to Claire Potter the events coordinator at New Renaissance Bookshop in Portland and to Chrystal Aulson of East West Bookshop in Mountain View, CA.

New Beginnings: Hope is in the Air!

Music Honoring Women… and the Men who Support Us!

Though times are a changing, I know that when I went through my own #metoo moments, people didn’t believe me either, thinking I was being dramatic. However, after sitting in  numerous AA meetings hearing about blackouts and how people do not remember those events, well this gave me hope in thinking that my former partner didn’t remember his crazy, nasty behavior.

All the things I thought were my wounds, I now know that this wounding is my greatest teacher for stepping into the North Wisdom Keeper White Buffalo on the Medicine Wheel,  the subject that I am consumed with these days and for which I am giving two new talks at East West Book Store in Mountain View on July 7,  and at New Renaissance Book Store in Portland on July 14.

Now understanding all those experience and “wounds”  is what defines how I work with people in my coaching practice,  appreciating them beyond anything I could experience even when I turned 50; now I am finally letting go of the pain.

Now I realize that my childhood was a spiritual independent gift; I was the first latch key key of a divorced parent out of 450 kids in San Francisco’s St. Agnes School. I had a life of freedom, taking buses to ice skate and to the roller rink, to folk dance in Stern Grove, to swim at 48 Ave and to ride bikes to the De Young Museum & to the beach.  (My mom didn’t know most of this, as I wasn’t supposed to be doing these things, or at least I didn’t ask).  I loved traveling in San Francisco now looking back! I use to have my sad story but now it is one of my greatest strengths.

Also, there were those moments of being ridiculed that I would become a bag lady as I was going through a divorce has given me the strength to be out there for other women who have been abused or belittled for their feelings and for being an empath; now I understand the struggle of it all.

Now, I am coaching some women who are addressing turning 50; what I figure is stepping into the North on the Medicine Wheel, just the start of letting go of our old story. One of the questions I have on my coaching questionnaire is “Are you sick of your story?’ We have all lived our story, feeling the sadness and pain as we tell it; what if we let go and use this very story for that moment of wisdom and empowerment ? What a thought!

I watched the Royal Wedding this weekend and found it to be a sign of strength and hope for our world, showing that love makes a difference. Then I saw the Wedding Music Awards honoring women and the men who support us. Kelly Clarkson pleaded that we stand up for change and still be that spiritual person with inner beauty, strength, and wisdom. There is change in the air; let’s make it all happen.

Join Me for a Vision Quest in Mt. Shasta in July!

I have an amazing opportunity for you to join me for a “Moving Through It” Quest in Mount Shasta, California on July 27-30, 2018.

This is for people who are interested in creating what you want by using my technology, coaching, and guidance for “Moving Through It.”

Moving Through It! means working through whatever is bothering you or holding you back.

Rather than numbing it through alcohol, shopping, TV or whatever else limits you, I will coach you to directly manifest your dreams through exercise, meditation, journaling, and gratitude work.  This is a spiritual retreat in a beautiful, natural setting that brings you closer to nature and to your own heart.  I will support you in going on a Quest for yourself and your life. I have conducted this Quest since 1991, leading dozens of people on a journey of self discovery and breakthrough. 

For those of you who have attended or supported on a previous Quest, you know what an amazing experience it is being out in the Mt. Shasta area, feeling safe and taken care of and having that powerful nature supporting you. You are out in nature, feeling the power of Mount Shasta’s energy, a life changing experience!

Some of the things that might we might address on the Moving Through It! Quest include:

  • Identifying Your Blocks or Limitations
  • Gaining Clarity about your Career or Life Purpose
  • Healing Relationships
  • Finding Inner Peace
  • Connecting Deeply with Nature
  • Facing Your Fears
  • Beginning or Deepening your Meditation and Journaling Practices

Here are some of the logistics for the Moving Through It! Quest:

  • We will gather in Mount Shasta on the first day, July 27, 2018 (I will disclose the location to you when you register). This is also a solar eclipse day, with powerful energies to kick us off on our inner work. 
  • Then I will lead a sweat lodge, weather permitting, to clear out your energy and mind and open you up to new insights.
  • After the lodge, you will select your campsite.  
  • You then go out to your place in nature to camp for 4 days / 3 nights on your Quest.
  • You will have a supporter (me) who checks on you to make sure you are safe while you are out on your Quest.
  • Back in camp, where we will stay nearby, the team supporters will continue to pray for you.
  • Monday morning (July 30) your Supporter will bring you back to Sweat Lodge and in silence we will have ceremony welcoming you back, plus share ceremonial food, and we will conduct a ceremony.
  • After we are complete I suggest or demand anyone from out of town stay here locally in Mt. Shasta, as you are probably in an altered state, without realizing it. It is really about safety.

I have 4-5 spots available for this amazing life adventure. If you are interested please contact me and I will send you an application.  

Even before the Quest begins,  many issues may come up for you. We will have six meetings leading up to the Quest to provide you with support and coaching. 

By gathering together on the conference calls, you will be prepared by the time you arrive on July 27th for the adventure. You will arrive with 707 prayer ties that you have created to pray for your Quest, your life, your family and for the Earth.

Then once the Quest is complete,  we will have three more sessions  to integrate what came up for you before and during your Quest and to help you Move Through It with my coaching. This is really a powerful ceremony for your life. I hope that you will join me for this great adventure. I look forward to supporting you on your journey, your Quest, and in Moving Through It on whatever is holding you back! 

With blessings,

Linda M Held



New Times not sure what that means for any of us!

So I feel very blessed, suppose to go Kona 3-14, however got an email from Alaskan Air confirming the flight 3-7………geese louise! I was sure they were wrong not so on my way to workout at 5:45am, but knew I needed to get on the phone cancellations, plus less then 2 day to achieve new reservations? What a nightmare but still knowing there is something deeper going on. My Virgo rising doesn’t make these type of mistakes but did, oh my! So now paying more for car, so many are going to Kona due to crazy weather in the East Coast. I spend till 3:30 pm getting it settle plus paying much more then usual. So now less then 24 hrs to jump in the car ride to Los Gatos have my son Josh get us to the airport by 6 am. We did it plus having my Mom at 88 letting her know at 7 am we are leaving for Kona Wednesday morning she says, ‘ Are you kidding”  me “Nope!” Then explaining or trying to how I could mess up so bad. This is a big example of following directions no matter what which Charlie Thom knew I was good at one of my many gifts. Often not really understanding why only to find out much later. I still don’t have the complete answer yet,but what I do know it I have a bigger bill on my credit card, coming back had 2 new clients. I know I needed some type of healing  getting out of town being by the energy of Pele for sure. I had planned to write more and didn’t but I did do a video early in the morning which was fun and easy. I feel blessed to have done zoom with a couple different groups for over a year feeling pretty comfortable using it plus seeing the benefit of being authentic. I also got some flyers planned and sent them to Zepp getting done for my talk In Portland March 14 11-12:30 a place I haven’t wanted to go since my son was living there to get resident so he would apply to Dental School. I will do a video on FB on that long relationship with the area. I also got my flyer done for my talk at East West in Mountain View April 21 6-9 pm workshop.  I did that video on FB already both flyers are almost the same the same talk posted here along with my Women’s Me too gathering May 26-27, so I did get focused. Also getting focused of coming back for recouping maybe every 6 months; Still doing 3 sessions for clients while on this vacation. I really love being available for my clients a gift I have had for many years Eve Crane from KEST the radio show always complimented this. It is very important to me!

Coming back feeling the importance of getting out there the time is NOW I knew I had to do the March, however jumping in the car going to SF or Sacramento was too much of a drive, so I went to Medford to be counted. Seeing that I guess the crowd was over 50 yesterday the poll said the most were age 49 and older, plus 89% Hilary voters. The time is now that is another reason I workout so much to clear the crazy energy of this political and personal energy, plus being that older in the North of the Medicine Wheel Elder to be able to continue this drive! Thank you for reading this!

In Between the Eclipses – Feb 2018.

Wow, wee what is going on? I bet you are wondering along with everyone else……..I keep checking astrology thinking am I doing this right, probably not… I still workout early to stay on track, meditate, pray, tap, and off to plan my day.

I was in the Bill Baren Rising Stars (2015), the program just before All-Stars, building to get there but suddenly on November 28 I got a message from one of my breakout coaches that she owed me two sessions more since the program is now over or you can have your regular coach do those, really I still owe money. At first, I was floored as they brand themselves on integrity and communication, how did I not know it was over?

But then I stepped back to think,  ok God this is another sign to step aside. I had talked with my coach saying this then settling in that maybe I was just finished with this particular part of the program.

One of the issues I have worked on all year is setting boundaries with my clients. I am very folksie so  I tend to work with my clients for a long time. I find that people squeak in the friend range when I attempt to say that in fact, the shaman work I have been doing with them is really in the client mode, they tend to get angry. So why wouldn’t they when free works. I have often opted out when asked to go to lunch or coffee they still want some processing or support so then I just skip that. So my coaches have been a success I have set some clear boundaries leaving some of them annoyed with me. I had one guy I met once he announced on one of my calls by the way I will no longer pay you because we are now friends……..Really? I never know what to say at that moment.

I have some great tools and training from the Bill Baren training, meeting amazing people. So I have learned this year that just keep the focus no matter what. My clients are saying the same thing feeling out of sorts, stale, not feeling inspired, wishing they would achieve their dreams, but till these eclipses are passed we are putting down the magic and prayer to make miracles happen and move forward and through it no matter what.

I have gotten clear messages recently I have followed those directions, if I ask my clients to do it then I must. When I was going to the bay area to help relieve family stress I go to Soul Cycle and intense workout this gal I have gone with this would be my fourth time. I got the clear message to offer to give her support, now I don’t know her at all. But one of the Shaman gifts I have always had is I follow directions like accepting that Bill Baren may be done with me. So on Saturday morning in Stanford Palo Alto I came early to give Casey my card telling her that I would love to support/reading for her………she looked shocked but I said we could connect after. Which if you nothing about this Soul Cycle it is 50 people all jamming in on soul cycle bicycles for 45 mins. then coming out another 50 people coming in for the next class so crowded front office, but I stuck around feeling a bit stupid but knowing I had to do it. Casey told me she had never done anything like that seeing her look at me this crazy woman I got her email to send her this website and my info. Funny huh!

Then another vision I had been in a group of women on Zoom after doing the Christine Kloser’s Transformational Author Retreat in Baltimore, we did our Soul Sister Writing Group for about a year using Zoom. I had the definite message to see if they would be willing to maybe do it again once a month or so. So I again wrote a message who knows the jury is still out on that. I had 2 gals from that group I had to claim that session (paid) verse friend so made a peace call to the one to heal it. I know at this time it is no accident who shows up these days holding on the resentments or old stuff isn’t where it is at.

I also had two friends I have known for over 20+ yrs contact which for me is another beautiful sign the time is moving in a good direction. One had already signed up for my Women’s Gathering May 26 & 27, plus making flyers for Vision Quest July 27-30. So what is my point about this since we and I are in-between these eclipses and New Moon very important to set the groundwork for not only this year but the intentions for the coming years as odd as that might seem.

I also contacted New Renaissance In Portland I am doing a talk April 14, and at East West in Mountain View on Medicine Wheel Wisdom and the Healing Power of Mt Shasta. Even though I too feel like I am somewhat stagnating, I know I am in the right place writing here getting back to my stories that need to be documented even if I use my other name but while I still remember the wild happening it needs to be a focus.

Today Results Coaching Fundamentals Retreat has started for the Bill Baren but it felt clear as I went to workout at 6 am I am in the right place doing the right action. In the past, I have done so many things and knew I had to show up but this was a clear message nope no need. It is free great people well I am still paying so not so free. I am sure it is awesome again not wanting to sign up for the next go around but not now. My friend Rebecca is there I miss doing this with her but we can do something else or still continue as accountability coaches. Just a heads up I did my visit Vision Quest in 1991, then being in the Marble Mountains for 13 days processing the other Questers 26 of us, having an office in San Carlos having groups of women for the Artist Way, also doing Women’s Empowerment’s, so this is not my first rodeo, but doing Coaching with Bill Baren’s group since 2015 I have learned many better skills, of sending agreements, commitment s for each of us, it has helped define a better clear communication of expectations.